Freaking rain. Rained all night. Got so wet the electric was like.. screw this.. imma go for a vacation.. and off it went.. Literally for at least 5 hours.. Let me tell you, that makes for a VERY long night with a 6 year old. Thankfully (not really) my husband set his alarm on his phone.. Just in case he said.. Grr. So up went in the dark searching for those clothes I didn’t set out and looking for toothpaste in the dark. About halfway thro the morning the electric came back and all was well in the world of the Wood Family, Cept of course us yawning and rubbing our eyes still.. and DRAGGIN ASSS.. that last is me. In fact I’m soooo tired I just wanna curl back up in under the covers. If I keep talking about it I bet I will. So Ill shut up now about the rain with the final words.. Freaking rain.
A couple of things been bouncing in my head screaming at me for the past .. oooo I don’t know.. Since I wrote last. Of course being the lazy fatty that I am I didn’t wanna *gasp* sit, and write. lol. Sometimes writing comes mega easy for me, and if I had one of those wee laptops Id prolly be writing all the time. BUT sitting in front of my computer after Im done folding clothes or whatever else Im doing just makes writing feel a bit more like a chore. Its ok though I eventually get the topics/thoughts down on screen. If I don’t remember by the time I do sit down to write then the topics weren’t really all that bigga deal and prolly shouldn’t be wrote about in the first place. I donno.
So first off. A little back ground. I have to bitch about this topic btw bc my husband would find it a bit weird seeing as how it bothered me and its not written down on my fat bitch. Anyway, My mother has been sick for the past ehhh maybe 6-10 years. Its been a while. Recently she was referred to a cancer specialist. BUT in order to see this specialist. She had to of course get a full body scan.. PET SCAN. Now, after being told, you should see a cancer specialist because that spot on your colon is growing to fast to be anything but cancer.. She gets a lovely phone call from a lady that speaks very bad engrish. Here’s literally how it went
Her:”Hello. Is this Jan?”
Mom:”Yes”
Her: ” Jan? How much you weigh?”
Mom: “Excuse me, who is this?
Her: “Jan, How much you weigh?”
Mom: “Im sorry who IS this?”
Her: ” This is *stupid bitch* from *dumbass lab*”
Mom: “O ok. Well isnt it down on the charts that were sent to you?”
Her: ” Yes but You no lie?”
Mom: ” Huh? lie? No i didnt lie, It was also writen by the nurse that took my weight. Im assuming she didnt lie?”
Her: “Ok well if you no lie, then you to fat for machine.”
Mom: ” Scuse me?”
Her: ” You too fat for machine. Sorry”
Mom: ” What machine and what do you mean to fat?”
Her: ” The PET machine, and you are to fat you will get stuck.”
Mom … Hang up.
Yea so srsly guys,, that’s the convo. After that initial bullshit. Dad called the specialist back and explained how much shit just went down and the doc said ok I will look for another lab/hospital for her to have the scan down. So all is well right? Wrong.. The insurance now refuses to pay for the scan.. since they switched places.. O fucking Joy.
This whole convo was in fact VERY true. And Very sad to me. How fucking insensitive can you be? Even if you do not speak English as your first language, I’m SURE polite is in EVERY dialect. I donno. You just don’t tell someone that JUST found out they may have cancer that they to fat too. Cry.. So now we are fight the insurance company. I wrote them a letter I doubt it will do anything, but I still wrote it. This idiocy needs to stop. Since when is it ok to treat a human being that way.. Regardless of weight. When did this country become desensitized to fat hate, and poor fat treatment? Why is it social acceptable to be gay, slutty, pierced or tatted. But not fat? It makes no sense to me and deep down it makes me very sad for this planet we live on. It really must just be in human nature to HAVE to have something to hate right? We cant love if we dont have anything to hate and make them feel wrong. I remember back in the day, the first pierced people I ever saw was on Jerry Springer.. Looking back, I thought they were FREAKS>! but exciting.. and I still didn’t hate them. The guy that has all the tats on tv! I loved it. Most hated but still, it was back in the time where “If you cant say something nice don’t say anything at all" was the community motto. What’s the motto now? “A hateful glib today, keeps the fattys away?” COME ON PEOPLE! Life’s to fucking short to hate someone for being fat. And when it comes down to it. You hate them because they are fat. Say that a couple of times and tell me that doesn’t sound dumb as shit. I hate you because you are fat. WTF? Srsly? That’s ok in this world? It honestly doesn’t matter if YOU are fat or thin or black or purple or gay or religious or whatever. ITS NOT OK TO HATE! Lets try something, Lets see if you can go a whole day without using the word hate toward another human being, AND telling ONE person something nice. *gasp* What you mean Danna, a Compliment.. Yes a compliment.. Fattys this goes for us to. TOO many times I see tinys getting hated/bashed too. They are still people. We treat them at a different level bc they are thin. BUT they are still people. And the old saying “Treat someone as you wish to be treated.” Should still apply today. How the hell can we expect the world to follow suit if us fattys cant straighten our attitudes up first. Think about it.
A while back this post was going around the Fat-O-Sphere. Basically its a billboard for PETA. HAHAH the animal rights activists. Anyway, this sent me on a rant and the first person to get to hear it or at least part of it was a friend of mine. Well call him, eh, George. Now, George and I have great convos over msn about religion, politics and just general stuff like his cats or my daughter.. I dont normally include my fat life to him bc well tbh that’s just to personal for him and me. We don’t go that personal. Anyway. He happened to msn me right after I seen that billboard. So, I linked to him. I didn’t go off about it. I said what I told everyone else. Wow PETA fucked up with that. And he goes how come. And I explained.. Well if 90% of the U.S. is obese, you cannot tell me that didn’t just piss of A WHOLE LOTTA People. He goes. Eh I guess it would piss some off. Ummmm Hello? Fatty on other side of screen. YEA I guess SOME would be pissed off. O.o Anyway. I said something shitty about the “NEW fat think tank group” Obama has going to fix the world of fat people and said a snide comment about the health care reform and shit and was fixing to explain about my moms insurance issues. And hes like OO my dont get me started on Health care. I do NOT appreciate having to pay for obese people to get diabetic treatment or a ring around their stomach just to tell them to quit eating. Im like WTF George! Since when did you become an ass hole. He goes O don’t take it personal Danna, I hate paying for cancer treatment for smokers too. *FACEPALM* (yes really hard) What did Danna do? I got up and walked away from my computer. It was either that or kill it. AND seeing as how we cant afford a new one I just walked out my door and went outside. Even typing this conov, it still leaves me stunned. I mean, its HIS attitude that gets me going, and HIS attitude that is all over the place. Everyone feels that way.. They are soooo misinformed about the real issues. After I calmed down I came back in and saw he had written more about how he doesn’t buy into the fact that fat is genetic and yada. I srsly couldn’t believe this was the same guy Ive known for over 3 years. He truly believes that way. Its sad and hurtful all rolled into one. When I got the ability to type back (unclenched my hands) I wrote, Do NOT accept the outer reality, instead do FUCKING research and find out for your self so you don’t have to “buy into” anything. Maybe if you did some of your own you’d realize that you are WRONG on so many levels that I cannot even begin to list them. I mean, this guy is no joke. Hes never since Ive known him been misinformed or had an opinion about anything that he didn’t thoroughly look into first before passing judgment. So this was all new. After that however I just told him the fat convo is taboo with him and me. So he goes ok.
So Ive been doing alot alot alot of soul searching again. Trying to find my place. I need to learn to meditate so I don’t get so angry, or feel so freaking useless as time goes by. Hubby and I have been discussing different ave. for me to take. Looked into Vo tech.. that’s a no go because I live outta district for the tuition. I looked at Jewelry making, Witch if I say so myself after my first necklace isn’t too bad at all, its just to much for me to pay for right at this moment. I donno. And I LOVE to write. I LOVE to read. Id LOVE to write a novel. I don’t know the first thing about it though. Im not all that great at grammar, spelling and what not. Oh, and topics.. Im great at topics.. Just not so great at sticking to them. Its still in the air. Im 31 and I dont know what I wanna be when I grow up yet. HeHe. Its exasperating and makes me feel like a failure. I want to contribute to my family. I want to be an inspiration to my daughter in some way. I dont want the only thing she “gets from her mom” is her sarcasm and wit. Grr Makes me feel melancholy writing about it so I will stop now. In fact its about time I checked on something to munch on.. hungry is/are sneaking up..
As Always, Thanks for tuning into the fat rant channel.
